Below are the most recent 7 friends' journal entries.

Monday, January 4th, 2010
teddyvamp	8:00a	There's been a flood. There's nothing left. It's gonna take a whole nother life. It's gonna be a long time.
Sunday, January 3rd, 2010
teddyvamp	9:19p	kedeia (9:04:44 PM): Maybe we should focus on how best to kill Megan Fox. Trite Pseudonym (9:04:51 PM): Why Trite Pseudonym (9:04:56 PM): What did she do kedeia (9:05:06 PM): You have not been paying attention. Trite Pseudonym (9:05:33 PM): No Trite Pseudonym (9:05:40 PM): Never basically Trite Pseudonym (9:05:49 PM): What happened kedeia (9:06:02 PM): Oh she's just a conceited stupid cunt. Trite Pseudonym (9:06:16 PM): About what Trite Pseudonym (9:06:23 PM): Plenty of those kedeia (9:06:31 PM): She's one'a them actresses who thinks she's different. kedeia (9:06:33 PM): Like Angelina Jolie. Trite Pseudonym (9:06:47 PM): Different how kedeia (9:06:50 PM): Who is celebrated, who's éclat is that she is different. kedeia (9:06:55 PM): When in fact she is identical. Trite Pseudonym (9:06:55 PM): In love with her brother different Trite Pseudonym (9:06:59 PM): Oh Trite Pseudonym (9:07:38 PM): She always struck me as kinda flat. Never really caught my eye. kedeia (9:07:41 PM): I just hate celebrities, you know. Trite Pseudonym (9:07:45 PM): Yeah Trite Pseudonym (9:07:51 PM): I don't like celebrity women kedeia (9:07:54 PM): I'd like to kill them and redistribute their wealth. Trite Pseudonym (9:07:58 PM): Because they're not real kedeia (9:08:03 PM): I think I hate most pretty women. Trite Pseudonym (9:08:06 PM): Well I wouldn't go that far Trite Pseudonym (9:08:12 PM): About the killing kedeia (9:08:17 PM): Well, it's not that I hate them, but I have absolutely no sympathy for them. kedeia (9:08:23 PM): What does a pretty girl really have to deal with. kedeia (9:08:27 PM): I mean really. Trite Pseudonym (9:08:27 PM): Nothing kedeia (9:08:33 PM): Nothing, no not one thing. Trite Pseudonym (9:08:38 PM): don't eat too much, be lucky about genes kedeia (9:09:30 PM): Or if it is something it is like a rich person complaining of jadedness or a blasé torpor. kedeia (9:09:56 PM): What is it annoying that so many guys want to marry you or fuck you or be your friend or buy you drinks. Trite Pseudonym (9:10:09 PM): They get offered dick all the time right kedeia (9:10:13 PM): I hope your goddamn face gets mangled and your tits rot off. Trite Pseudonym (9:10:18 PM): Like that Chris Rock bit kedeia (9:10:25 PM): It's not even about the dick. kedeia (9:10:56 PM): It's about the fact that there is always someone willing to support them, that they are allowed to falter and fail and openly bemoan their misfortunes and mistakes, etc. kedeia (9:11:15 PM): I mean, you're a man, you know how it is for us. kedeia (9:11:19 PM): We're not allowed to fail. kedeia (9:11:33 PM): Not without being woefully "misunderstood" by all save your steadfast wifey. kedeia (9:11:46 PM): We're not allowed to have anxiety or depression or any serious disorder. kedeia (9:12:02 PM): With a woman these difficulties only somehow increases her delicacy and therefore her appeal. kedeia (9:12:12 PM): With a man it is considered some terrible incongruity. Trite Pseudonym (9:12:33 PM): Would you have it any other way though Trite Pseudonym (9:12:41 PM): It would be a shame to have a nation of pussies kedeia (9:12:55 PM): Versus a nation of brutes? Trite Pseudonym (9:13:36 PM): Not brutes, but some degree of stoicism is to be respected in my opinion kedeia (9:13:48 PM): Well, mine too. kedeia (9:14:04 PM): It's just nice to remind women how easy they have it once in a while when they start to carp. kedeia (9:14:15 PM): Maybe it's all bullshit but I get the feeling that if women were men for one day they would crumble while if men were women for one day they would celebrate. kedeia (9:16:32 PM): Also as a man you're not supposed to have brought any of this up. kedeia (9:16:43 PM): Whoops. Trite Pseudonym (9:19:42 PM): I don't understand the point of declaring all-out war on them though. Maybe I just haven't had to put up with enough of their stupidity Trite Pseudonym (9:19:52 PM): I wonder if there are really brilliant women kedeia (9:20:04 PM): There are, I've known them. kedeia (9:20:36 PM): But I tell you I've come to believe in that conventional wisdom regarding women, intelligence, and beauty. Trite Pseudonym (9:20:41 PM): It's not as though there are many smart men kedeia (9:21:06 PM): Every woman I've known who had any degree of personality was somehow flawed in some way, with regard to appearance. kedeia (9:21:12 PM): And that didn't mean they weren't pretty. kedeia (9:21:16 PM): Often times it was just in their head. kedeia (9:21:37 PM): Like they thought their nose was big or their hands were ugly or some bullshit. Trite Pseudonym (9:21:48 PM): Yeah Trite Pseudonym (9:22:04 PM): Skin too dark. Something men don't really care about. kedeia (9:22:08 PM): Almost like the personality was signal of some other concomitant deficiency. kedeia (9:22:11 PM): Or defect. kedeia (9:22:22 PM): Like the Seinfeld bit about eyebrows. kedeia (9:22:30 PM): Man that show offers me so much comfort. kedeia (9:22:37 PM): I wish I had a television here so I could catch that. kedeia (9:22:43 PM): That and Curb Your Enthusiasm. Trite Pseudonym (9:23:06 PM): Curb Your Enthusiasm is Seinfeld without the straight man Trite Pseudonym (9:23:26 PM): 90% George 10% absurd kedeia (9:23:27 PM): I don't think there was a straight man on Seinfeld, or at least not a dedicated one. Trite Pseudonym (9:23:38 PM): Jerry was the straight man in my opinion kedeia (9:23:45 PM): Nah, he had his shit. kedeia (9:23:55 PM): Germophobe, constant dissatisfaction with women, etc. kedeia (9:24:29 PM): I mean most of the time he was the immaculate rib-nudger. kedeia (9:24:45 PM): But every once in a while they showed his flaws. kedeia (9:25:00 PM): Like with Elaine. kedeia (9:25:16 PM): For the most part she and Jerry were the opposing (or maybe complimentary) voices of reason. kedeia (9:25:24 PM): Which is I guess why they looked alike and fucked for a while. kedeia (9:25:35 PM): But she was ridiculous and so was he. Trite Pseudonym (9:25:45 PM): But in a more conventional way Trite Pseudonym (9:25:46 PM): Yeah kedeia (9:25:51 PM): Right. Trite Pseudonym (9:25:55 PM): More day-to-day stuff kedeia (9:26:02 PM): Not a Can't Stand ya or Cosmo. Trite Pseudonym (9:26:17 PM): That was more my point Trite Pseudonym (9:26:29 PM): George was the one that had the constant social dysfunction Trite Pseudonym (9:26:41 PM): And Kramer was the insane one Trite Pseudonym (9:26:58 PM): I actually think most of the interesting conversation came by way of George kedeia (9:27:09 PM): But then you met George's parents and you knew why. kedeia (9:27:20 PM): Yeah, I think most of us identify with George. kedeia (9:27:26 PM): The neurotic knock inside all of us. kedeia (9:27:47 PM): No one is supposed to identify with Kramer. kedeia (9:27:55 PM): And so far, I've not known anyone to do so. Trite Pseudonym (9:29:27 PM): They don't make 'em like they used to
Monday, December 28th, 2009
teddyvamp	1:52a	Breathe through it, write a list of desires Make a toast, make a wish, slash some tires
Saturday, December 26th, 2009
teddyvamp	8:41p	I wrote you a letter but I threw it away, I knew I would if I waited a day, It made me feel better what I had to say, I'll never learn I'm burning all this paper away. I'm burning all this paper away. I'm burning all this paper.
Thursday, December 24th, 2009
teddyvamp	11:51p	you never liked to get the letters that i sent but now you've got the gist of what my letters meant you're reading them again the ones you didn't burn you press them to your lips my pages of concern i said there'd been a flood i said there's nothing left i hoped that you would come i gave you my address your story was so long the plot was so intense it took you years to cross the lines of self-defense the wounded forms appear the loss the full extent and simple kindness here the solitude of strength
teddyvamp	1:19a	I was hasty, I was wrong; you were misnamed. You are a roe deer.
teddyvamp	1:17a	The imbibing that I have once again engaged myself in is accompanied each evening with a particular and transient anxiety at the outset of every episode. I have come to accept this physical and psychological discomfort as symptom and sign of a very literal transformation. Like every significant change this transformation brings with itself an initial vertigo and bewilderment, a fear and a confusion that must be calmly yet consciously borne while awaiting steadily the settling of the roiling rearrangement.